Resurrected

Hello wild ones!

I’m sure you’re thinking, oh wow, this bitch finally came back from the dead. WOW. How fucking nice of her to remember that she has a blog.

I wish I could give you some dramatic excuse as to why I took such a long leave of absence, but I don’t have one to dole out. Nothing happened to me. I just decided to let my insecurities get the better of me yet again and this time it ended up making me leave yet another thing I love behind. This blog. I know it may not seem like that big of a deal, but to me it was/is. For an entire year I blogged my inner most thoughts, the ups and downs of my everyday life, and while it depressed the hell out of me to realize that my life consisted of a lot of vegging about, I still had this amazing thing to cling to.

Here I could be myself, well sort of anyway, and I guess I became frustrated with myself because I kept censuring some of my thoughts because people in my family were reading the blog everyday. And I started to say that if I wasn’t really being my true self what the hell was the point anymore, but then today I read this amazing book, well gobbled it up greedily is more accurate, but you catch my drift. It made me realize that I shouldn’t keep hiding myself away and being so damn scared all the time to go after what I want.

So, I’m back. Obviously, I haven’t really thought about what that means, but for today it means I’m saying hello again and hoping that the 50 or so of you who were reading my blog before are still around and willing to be subjected to more of me.

At the beginning of this year I made this little goal that I was going to reevaluate my blog and come up with a plan that fit my life a little better, well here I am nearly 6 months later and I am going to stick to that damn plan. Today when I get home from work, yes I am at the hell hole I call work, instead of gobbling up the 4th novel in the series I started yesterday, I am going to sit my ass down and make a plan. Tomorrow I will share said plan.

Okay, I better get back to work…my boss is lurking around here somewhere and I already get in trouble for reading at work, so it would be best for me not to get busted writing a blog post.

Until tomorrow, stay wonderfully wild!

Chels